What is life if not a quagmire?

What would life be without free will?


The human itself is the most complex thing we have yet to understand.

Most part of the times, I decide with my heart, but it has to have the balance of understanding.

When our mind, heart and gut are not balanced & interconnected, our "inner compas" cannot show us the right answers.

We're all a quagmire of energies after all. 

Sometimes, we make choices that don't end well, but we made the choice with good intentions.
It's from these circumstances that we slowly start to gather the experience that will transform into our own wisdom.

Every master was once a disaster after all. 

Other times though, it is surprising how we find the darker motivations. Or better said, it's how these darker motivations find us. 

Sometimes it's when we've given our all and it still wasn't enough, again and again. When we've laid our heart bare, and it was still ripped to shreds. 

Sometimes, you can make no mistake at all, and still lose. That, is life.

In certain circumstances, the cost of such an experience can be so exorbitant that it can't be put into words.

Other times though, one experience, one single experience is all it takes. Human cruelty knows no bounds. 

If you survive it, it can change your heart at its root.

Life can be merciless. 

The biggest issue though is when more than one of such experiences crashes your life, when fate mercilessly knocks on your door for a second time. 

That's when you don't really have the choice anymore to decide who you are. It is still possible to choose but any choice other than letting your emotions take control would be inhuman.

Not many understand what I'm talking about. 

When hope abandoned us, that's when we start making choices with pure venom, with hate for the world. 
The mind can be a crazy thing.
And if it's propelled by the heart at the same time, it becomes a very powerful, dangerous and consuming thing.

It's not for nothing that many people became lost in power. 

When you're able to hate with all your heart, you're unstoppable.

Nothing can stop you.

However, nothing else can stop you from consuming yourself at the same time.

Viciousness knows no bounds, it is a very dreadful thing in the hands of people incapable of having a bad conscience. 

And when we're treated with inhuman cruelty by such beings, that's when our heart decides to hate with its whole being.

That's when our blood really turns cold, and that means we're prepared to treat ourselves even more viciously to reach our goals. 

Revenge is an elixir, a very viscous juice.

It is served cold, yet it makes one feel alive, it brings one back to life, even if it's only for a fleeting moment. 

It's like drinking poison to quench one's own thirst though. 


The question is, is it really worth your life? 

Everything can be used as a driving force, not every drive has the same power though, and at the same time, not every drive has the same price to pay. 

Remember, two sides of the same coin. 

Don't let your past define you.

Don't let your life be consumed by your hate. 

Even if you don't have any other choice than let your hate consume you, please know that it's not the end, eventually you will find your way back to the light, I hope that you also do.

Only three things can stop yourself from letting hatred consume your life. It's either you, revenge, or death.

Choose your price wisely, only time will tell.